You know what? Get over it.

There’s nothing to feel insecure about her. Yes, she is now living together with her boyfriend. So what? you know your boyfriend is waaaaaaaay better than hers. You never fight each other, you’re both always happy together and he’s more than a man than hers, so why bother thinking about it? She is building her own independent life. Renting her own house. Financially okay. Having all the good stuffs. Studying in a fine university. And so? You could have your independent life eventually. Someday you will be on your own with the one you been wanting to spend the rest of your life with, for now, you both just working on that. He’s working, you’re studying to get your diploma. Sooner, you’ll get a great regular job that will help you to build your own dream life: build own dream house, have kids, and all that. You’re studying in just a crap school, hello? you’re in the IT industry, do you think you’ll run out job out of your field? Of course, you must work on that, too to get a really good job, you study hard. Don’t let those insecurities control you and ruin you, you must control it and ruin it. If you believe, things you always dream of will happen. God knows when your time gonna shine. For the meantime, work on it. Work on the things you want to happen. and you’ll see yourself living the dream at the end of a tunnel.

Shane Appreciation post #1

It's been a while, let me have this random posts

I'm taking overload units this semester including thesis (goodluck to me!). So, the following months will be the busiest time of my life.

There be going an album launch of Westlife's last album Greatest Hits 2 this coming 2 Saturdays in Megamall. I'd really love to come, but I still don't have money to buy the album :( but a friend is offering to lend me money... still talking thinking about it.

My family is now officially residents of Cavite. I am now staying here in my Uncle's place here in QC to finish my study. I still have a year till I get my college diploma.

David Beckham is coming in the Philippines. Superstar!

KC-Piolo break up: I believe Piolo has sexuality issues.

I miss my boyfriend big time.

Bad Teacher: bad movie

Okay, so my sem break is partially started. My tv is wreck, boo's not coming home for the weekend, I'm left with my laptop with many movies saved that I have already seen 97% of those. Got no choice but to watch the remaining films cos my internet is limited and it takes days for me to download a movie file. Good thing I have copied some from my classmate including Bad Teacher starring Cameron Diaz and Justin Timberlake.

I've always love Justin T. He's like one of the hottest guy on earth, totally drools over him. But I hated him for doing this movie. Bad Teacher has the most dislikable lead character which is Cameron Diaz playing the bad ass teacher and too bad, no justice has given. I was waiting for the story to bitch slap the character by the karma in any different way, comedic or dramatic. I thought it was a comedy film but there wasn't any funny scene at all except for the scene where Justin and Cameron having sex and orgasm with clothes on. Well, no... it's not funny for a fan of Justin's hotness like me, I was more like... frustrated. :D Well, whatever. I say, Bad Teacher is one of the worse movies I've seen.

Never see this coming: WESTLIFE SPLITS

They always promise fans that they'd be around for long time, but after a so many rumors about their band splitting up, they finally said it: "WE'RE SEPARATING."

This time though, there were no splitting rumors circulated before they announced the devastating news on their official site. It's a shock, actually. No one saw it coming. Couple of weeks ago, they were just expressing their excitement through their twitter about their upcoming 2nd greatest hits compilation album, the upcoming single Lighthouse and next year's tour. They even told before when they changed their record label that they would have 2-3 singles to be released on their next album. Then they dropped this bomb to us.

After 14 years, 26 top ten hits including 14 number one singles, 11 top 5 albums, 7 of which hit the top spot and have collectively sold over 44 million copies around the world, 10 sell out tours and countless memories that we will forever cherish, we today announce our plan to go our separate ways after a greatest hits collection this Christmas and a farewell tour next year. The decision is entirely amicable and after spending all of our adult life together so far, we want to have a well-earned break and look at new ventures. We see the greatest hits collection and the farewell tour as the perfect way to celebrate our incredible career along with our fans. We are really looking forward to getting out on the tour and seeing our fans one last time.

Over the years Westlife has become so much more to us than just a band. Westlife are a family. We would like to thank our fans who have been with us on this amazing journey and are part of our family too.

We never imagined when we started out in 1998 that 14 years later we would still be recording, touring and having hits together. It has been a dream come true for all of us.

Kian, Mark, Nicky and Shane

To be honest, I couldn't cry over this. I'm upset, but I'm not grieving. I see all my co-lifers crying status and text messages but today, I was busy doing my remaining school works. I say to my friends, "I'm sad, Westlife is splitting up." but no tears. Don't get me wrong, I love Westlife. I have been supporting them for over 11 years, I swear I knew all their songs, released, unreleased, b-sides even rare tracks of 'em. I just can't put a lot of emotions to this. I don't even know why. Maybe because they're not dead yet? maybe because we have innovative internet that we can still follow them individually (twitter, thank you) or maybe the fact that they'd be still around like Shane is planning to go solo (I'm excited about this) and Nicky doing TV. Or maybe they're not splitting up NOW. They just announced that next year will be their Farewell tour so next years will be their official disbanding. I dunno. But I'm still sad. I still can't see myself spending years forward without Westlife. They've been around half of my entire life, and I'm so used to it. Well, I hope Shane Filan would really pursue his solo career, same goes to others on whatever career they'd choose. So Westlife would just still be around :)

Well apparently, it's been under their sleeves the whole time they were making Greatest Hits 2 album. That's why they have this Greatest Hits box selling set where some fan pictures are included that I doubt every fans in the world could get one.

It Includes:

- 2CD/DVD Deluxe Version

- Exclusive pictures

- Exclusive poster

- Photobook illustrating Westlife's journey over the last 14 years along with fan pictures

Picture, picture

'Lala' bracelet I got from recent barangay fiesta

Piknik in can :)

My cute fashion optical mouse bought from CDR-King :)

Me and boo at McDo

I've had the time of my life: My Westlife Concert Experience

“If I could make the moment last forever, this will be the one I choose, you and me here together. Feels so right, feels so true every star led to you…”

After a decade of Westlife fangirl-ing, I finally able to watched them live! Flesh! With my naked Eyes! Right in front of me! God! I was so nervous, I feel like floating. I couldn’t scream. I don’t remember I ever shout “Shaaaaaaaaane! Nickkyyyyy! Maaaark!, Kiaaaaaaaaan!” out loud and I totally wasn’t like ‘Aaaaaaaaaaah” *fangirl scream*. But I’m not saying I had my mouth closed the whole time, ofcourse I sang along with them especially in I Will Reach You set.

So some rewind: I was in NAIA Terminal 1 airport along with other fans to welcome them. I thought if I can’t have a meet and greet pass, atleast I could see them closer, maybe closer than I could get to them in the concert night. Disappointingly, I only saw Mark inside the car. I saw his glowing smile through the windshield and I was like, “Shet, Si Mark.” That’s why I missed a glimpse of Nicky in the following car cos I was trying to get a video of Mark but since its 12mn and the car’s windows is effing tinted, I failed to get a video with their faces. I went home with extreme exhaustion and wished to get a closer look to them on the concert night.

Tonight is the night: I made friends because of Westlife. I get great bonding with people I share my interest with and never ran out of things to talk about. Some are friends online and some are what we call textfriends. So I finally got to meet them before the show. Actually they were too many to mention but I say they’re all fab. Cool people just what I thought J

My seat is just in the aisle corner. I chose it so I can do my hidden agenda: to run towards the front when westlife show up! And I did it! During the first song, I’m in the second row which ticket cost –ha-- 6 bucks! I got that idea to Westlife friend Nivee, thanks to her! :D (finally met her, she’s super nice!) I was about to go nearer, to the railings but huge guys called security stopped me so, okay, I stayed in the second row.

I was calmly enjoying the whole show. Whenever Shane gets near on the side where I positioned, I smile. A smile that from a thought of: “Oh, Shane, you’re look so amazingly handsome. I can’t believe I am seeing you in flesh right now.”

Star Magic Talent Young JV was the front act performer. It's a shame some people has to disrespect the artist just to see Westlife right away. C'mon people, let's have some maturity. Oh here, he's reporting for ASAP VIP Access segment.

Before the show starts, me and Chamy were lucky to meet Shane Filan -- standee

People @ the coliseum an hour before the concert.

This is how my seat far from the stage. Man, I gotta do something 'bout this.

The opening song. Wow, I'm in the second row now! Bwahahah!

Nicky tongue alert!

Shnicky moment in Manila

My gorgy on the screen

I have more photos of Shane (of course) but this is the best I've got. Thanks to a fan on the front whose hand has successfully blocked Shane's face in a couple shots I made. So pissed. I wanted to grab it and break it on the railings.

Mark Feehily looks bigger than I thought.

During the medley. I think this is one of my few best shots during that night.

Only few photos I made. Mostly blurred, but I took videos. The speeches, performance, moments.. Maybe i'll post screen shots some other time.

What more can I say? This is my first ever concert I attended and it is just totally amazing experience. Thank you, Westlife.

Anti Jump Shot Act 2011

If that law passed in the congress, we'd be in jail now. No, I don't do planking. It's funny but stupid. No offense. But the Anti Planking Act is more stupid. Anyway, we had org meeting today at school.

The ASTIG members

I'm with beautiful ladies :)

It's been a while since I had camera trip with friends :)

Lala Artwork

Hehe. Cute, yeah? So I'm supposed to be the one with eyeglasses. We saw Ruby at the canteen doing this sketch earlier, she tried to keep it secret from us, supposed to be a lil present for us... Hehe. Very nice. Thanks, ma friend! :)

Adik ako sa Westlife. Deal With it; What's funny being a fan girl anyway?

Adik ako sa Westlife.

1st year high school pa lang ako pinupuno ko na ng pangalan ni Shane ang likod ng notebook ko.

Nangungupit ako ng sampung piso sa nanay ko para lang makabili ng mga poster ng Westlife hanggang sa nakalimutan ko na ang kulay ng ding ding ng kwarto dahil nabalot na ng mga mukha nila Shane ang dingding.

Napapasigaw ako pag nakikita ko sila sa TV.

Isusunod ko kay Shane ang pangalan ng magiging anak ko in the future.

Pangarap ko sanang makarating ng Ireland.

Perslab ko si Shane. Perstaym kong makaramdam ng selos kay Gillian (asawa nya)

Natutuo akong mag-internet dahil sa Westlife.

Miyembro ako ng opisyal na samahan ng mga tagahanga ng Westlife dito sa Pilipinas (defunct WFCP and new WLPH)

Si Shane ang pinaka gwapong lalake nakilala ko.

Sinasabi ko sa mga maliliit kong pinsan at pamangkin na magiging asawa ko si Shane.

Lahat ng nakakakilala sa'kin, alam nilang panatiko ako ng Westlife.

Alam ko lahat ng kanta nila. Kahit yung mga b-sides or rare tracks (di ko nga lang memorized yung iba:))

Lantaran kong sinasabi sa kasintahan ko na mahal ko si Shane. (Well, confident naman about dun, lam naman nya kasing "baliw" lang ako..)

Gumastos ako ng halos 5000php para lang makita sila.

Never akong nagsawa sakanila.

Nakatago pa rin ang mga koleksyon kong magasin na featured sila.

Iniiyakan ko sila kapag may nababalitaan akong malungkot na nangyari sakanila.

Sinumpa ko na hindi ako pwedeng mamamatay hanggat di pa ko nakakapunta sa konsert nila (but please, dont murder me after 29th Sept. :))

at marami pa akong "kabaliwan" (kung yan man ang nasa isip mo) sa Westlife. Kahit na hindi nila alam ang existence ko. Kahit na nakatira sila sa kabilang side ng mundo. Kahit na sila'y tumatanda at lumipas na ang uber kasikatan nila. Kahit na hindi sila tulad ng idolo mong banda na laging humahawak ng mga instrument pang musika o kahit ano pang "kahit na", wala pa ring magbabago, ako'y mananatili pa ring tagahanga nila.

And to tell you frankly, that's pretty amazing having this undying love and support to somebody who doesn't even know my name. What more to someone that I spend my days with personally? Wag mong pagtawanan ang isang taong gumagastos ng malaki para lang sa iniidolo nya, nagmamahal lang po. O wag mo ring kutyain. Di naman siguro ninakaw ang pera ginastos dun o malamang di naman sa'yo yung perang yun... Kung ano ang nagpapasaya sa kapwa mo, hayaan mo na lang. As long as wala syang sinasaktang tao. Kung di mo kayang sumuporta, mas mabuting hayaan na lang diba.. :)

I'm surrounded by failing relationships -- and infidelity themed shows and movie

I am saddened by the possible break up of the two of people I love and vair close to me. Nothing has confirmed yet but, there's a huge chance that they're going to splitville. This makes me real sad because I both love them and I have always thought that they're going to end up to each other and if the thing happened, one will say good bye not just to her but to me and my family as well. How will you feel if a person has became part of your family for many years now and with just a snap, a situation ends your connection to him? Plus the fact that they've been together for over 11 years now. A fucking 11 year relationship.

Then another case on the side, falling out of love turns to infidelity. Well for this one, I don't give a flying shit about the guy because he's a total crap. What kind of a drug addict, jobless 30 year old man leaving his girlfriend and their 2 young sons for a 16 0r 17 year old girl who even look like she never take a bath since she got into this world? I dunno how stupid people can be. Plus the left-girlfriend is pretending like she doesnt give a shit about his ex anymore but she silently keeps on checking on him. Psh.

With all these cases happening around me, I can't help but to worry, What if I get the same fate as theirs? What if I fall out of love unexpectedly, you really couldn't tell, could you? What if THAT happens to him? What if something happened and things changed and you can't do about it?

I can't help but these negative things affects me which I shouldn't be. Cos I know I'm different, he is different, we all have differences and we make our own fate, if everyone around is falling, that doesn't mean I should be falling also. I gotta get off this.

I dunno what's happening in the world, in people's mind, why all of a sudden, these media entertainment suddenly appeared with so timely happenings in my life right now.

Uso na nga ba ang kaliwaan ngayon? No wonder tragedy happens...

"Love can build a bridge" -- It can also destroy even the oldest and strongest one.

How can you be so sure with love?

I knew myself when I hit my adolescence, I was a hopeless romantic. Thanks to movies and pocketbook novels. I believed that I'm going to marry my first love and first boyfriend. I thought I'm going to have a romantic movie-like love story, like my suitor would jump off his feet the ti

me I'd give my sweetest "Yes" to him. Like, he would win me over a bouquet of flowers or chocolates or do me the old traditional thing harana, like he would write me songs, do all those risky things for me, knocks me off my feet... but unfortunately, no one has ever done any of those to me. But surprisingly, It's not a big deal at all. I guess, if you really love somebody, you would just forget all your standards and hopes when it comes to love.

I have been thanking God for the past 3 years now for giving me such a wonderful person and He made him as my boyfriend. And a best friend at the same time. He wasn't really my type at all, but just like I've said, you put exceptional on your standards if you're really into someone. I ask God to keep him forever and I have been imagining myself with him in the years forward. I can't imagine myself anymore with anyone else.

With some events that is happening around me, failing relationships. A fear grew in me. Another fear. A fear of falling in love with somebody aside from him. A fear of forgetting myself, all these feelings I have for him. A fear of hurting him. A fear of one day, I'd choose someone over him. All these thoughts running through my mind but honestly, I can't think of anyone or that 'someone' that's actually better than my boo. Someone that would make me do those unexpected things. Someone that would make me forget all about him. Can I ever say confidently that "I would never ever fall out of love?" Did the divorced man/woman after so many years of marriage has ever told those words to themselves? Will I become one of them? Am I really weak with temptations around? I sincerely hope not. I hope not.

"The only way to fight negativity is with positivity. Stay focused on the dreams..."

-- Jared Leto

Heart coming back as Kapamilya?

This year's Star Magic Ball got more interesting when a news broke about the fist fight between Coco Martin and Matteo Guidicelli.

What more interesting is some Kapuso stars attended the annual event like Heart Evangelista.

I hope she'll come back as kapamilya. I really do like her until she transferred to GMA-7

Lovi Poe is one of the prettiest star today (and sexiest) but she's not really looking good there. The outfit makes her look like a slim robot.

Ahh, my fave local singer. She's rocking cute in this kind of revealing outfit :)

Kathryn Bernardo looking so pretty.

Woah. Hello there Bea's cleavage!

Greta in a Paniki Queen costume. xD

More Star Magic Ball 2011 photos:

http://ph.omg.yahoo.com/photos/star-magic-ball-2011-1315113990-slideshow/

Long weekend in Cavite

I spent my long weekend in Cavite. It wasn't really a plan cos school left me lotsa things to be done to work on long weekend but since Saturday was storming, strong wind really made me scare so my nanay was worried and told us to go home for the holidays, so we took off Sunday morning.

Of course, thanks to CAVITEX, going home was smooth and convenient. I was even surprised when my sister suddenly tapped my back telling me we have reached Tejero, which is our bus stop, I was about to take a nap after enjoying my sight while we were crossing the road, then poof, we're already there.

When I studied a semester in STI Rosario last year, looking at this landscape is relaxing to me.

These are my lovely kiddie cousins. I love playing with these kids :)

CAVITEX made my life easier :)

We're not really from Cavite, my parents were born and raised in Davao and me and my siblings sees Quezon City as our hometown. My family just bought a house and lot in Gen. Trias, Cavite and we've been spending holiday seasons there for almost like 6 years. Riding home to Cavite is a bit challenge for me. Aside from I'm a lazy traveler, I'm a byahilo person. I get dizzy, I puked several times while on the road, I even puked at my bag! cos I can't take it no more and I had no choice but to let it out inside my it. Ew. The longer the travel, more brutal to me. Going to Gen. Trias takes more than 3 hours when riding a bus. I really hate it. I wish I could just teleport just like that! *snaps finger* Going home in Cavite never excites me, only when I finally get in our house and see my kiddie cousins.

Well, now, thanks to CAVITEX. We can finally rid of traffic in Bacoor, more convenient and

mas mabilis! hehe :)

Mrs. Gillian Walsh-Filan on Twitter!!!

Brad Pitt, Tom Cruise.. Theyre some of the gorgeous celebrities who's not into twitter till now. I think that's just what A-listers do eh? They don't really get in touch with the fans, and that's what Shane Filan does, too.

Or another reason might be, not really into techie stuffs?


Shane's new year's resolution for this year was to get himself on twitter since all his bandmate are already gaining hundred of thousands twitter followers.
Apparently, his blonde wife is doing the said resolution.




And Shane made his FIRST EVER TWEET via Gill's account.



Then again, I'm feeling jealous..

Gill's current profile pic



PS: I would die for a tweet from Shane. xp

"In your eyes, I found a greatest prize..."

Today's our 3rd year and 6 months together :)

I couldn't ask for more. I'm the luckiest :)

Globe Tattoo 'UN'LIMITED SURF

This is my current internet. A prepaid broadband plug in stick from Globe. This ain't mine, just borrowed this from Kuya Edgel and I use my mobile Globe sim card so whenever I go online using this, I can't use my phone to text or call (probably at this moment boo's calling my globe number).

Their TVC says no limit. Their TVC says the fastest broadband ever. Their TVC says bullshit. I load 60php (pang lunch ko na sa school yun, busog na ko all day) just to avail their 24-hour unlimited surf (SUPERSURF50 and 5p for remaining balance needed). Who says you can use your "unlisurf" 24hours? No, hun. If you have used 800mb, a text will notify you:

GLOBE Advisory: Ur data subscription for today has reached 800mb. Ur remaining browsing hours will resume tomorrow subject to promo validity. U may opt to forfeit ur remaining subscription to browse for P5/15 or register to other promos. To unsubscribe text SUPERSURF STOP or POWERSURF STOP to 8888. This promo is guided by Globe Fair Use Policy.

Your subscription will cut off and you will charge by continue using it which cost p5 per 15 minutes. It may resume by tomorrow, sometimes not, till your subscription ends. It's not sulit at all. Yep, I can't wait to change my internet. I might be switching to Sun Broadband.

I've waited for this half of my life

It's been almost a month ( i think) since the announcement of Westlife's Manila tour this year.

And I already got my ticket from the day tickets went on sale.

I really can't wait for this day! Westlife is the only band that I supported this long cos I have this ginormous crush on Shane Filan. He's the most beautiful man I've ever seen. I really can't leave this planet earth without seeing him or going on their concert.

I. JUST. LOVE. WESTLIFE.